Thank you for telling your stroy,Sweetcrusader. I think your advice to be guarded is good advice,as is to follow my heart,or gut instinct.Where I seem to be with all this is that I feel I want to do something ,to try but something actually stopps me from doing that.So,I'm being so guarded,so afrain I'll just get hurt more,that it's actually stopping me from doing anything.One way of looking at it is that that is my gut instinct,protecting me and telling me to stay away.

Oh,I wish I had more courage !!