I haven't been diagnosed with BPD but I have a strong feeling that I have it.
I've spoken with 2 people with BPD who say I sound very much like them. I've reacted hysterically to things my boyfriend did which should not have warranted that sort of reaction, threatened to kill myself when I couldn't cope with my feelings, I'm extremely impulsive (I've had 5 jobs in the last 2 years because I can't settle) and I get ideas in my head for things I want and feel I have to have them now. I also drink to excess regularly and can't seem to stand anything being too stable. I can't even remain in therapy because I impulsively decide to leave and then hate myself for it.
I guess I'm wondering, does the empty feeling ever go away? Can anything help? And do you think if I was to get an official diagnosis it would help or hinder me? I really don't think I want that label on me but I also feel I need to face up to the possibility I might have BPD.
Thank you.
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