Thanks everyone for your support. I wouldn't know what I could do to change up my meds. I don't have an AD because they make me manic. Yesterday I felt pretty mixed by the end of the day. Today I woke up not wanting to get out of bed again. Not wanting to try. Not wanting to be here. Do you ever feel like you are kind of comfortable in your depression? Like you don't really want to reach out to your T or pdoc because you want it all to play itself out to the end? I don't want to be judged for how I feel. I don't want anybody to panic. I don't want to pay anymore money to anyone. I'm just accepting however this goes.