Hi breakdown53.

As the last thread suggested about volunteering for a cat shelter etc.!! (Which by the way is a great idea) as I have been where you are now (No confidence, no motivation, and what the hell attitude!!) I can empathize with you 100%. `BUT` I did what catnip123 suggested (Worked, delivering food parcels` to church`s and hostels` around the Northwest) And I was made up, as it gave me a purpose to get out of my pit and a feeling of self satisfaction!! `Knowing I have given happiness and a feeling of being wanted to somebody else!! `AND ALSO` I met people who befriended me, had the banter with and went out on fishing trips` with!! `This made me feel great and needed inside!
`Better than throwing pills` down your mouth`?

Take care my friend............And I hope you feel better soon!