I would be devastated to lose my dad. He had 2 strokes two years apart. Due to alcoholism. Almost lost him. I went into a psychotic episode shortly after both those incidents. I have schizoaffective. Idk. I stayed by his side day in and out.

Now, its hard to leave his side. Hes ok now. But still drinks. But i worry when he goes to work and i worry all day and night until i see him again.