So today I had a meeting with my psychiatrist and his med student.

(I got to a special school for mental illness btw)

So today everyone kept asking if I took my ADHD meds because I was really hyper and I kept saying yes but no one believed me

HERES WHAT IM CONFUSED ABOUT.

During my meeting with my pdoc, (being the first conversation I had with someone all day, I've been kinda in my own world for the rest of it)

I was just....I don't even know what happened. The med student and my pdoc had trouble understanding me because according to him,

I was: - Talking at a speed of a million miles an hour,
- Every sentence I said was a different topic from my last sentence.

Because of these the meeting lasted almost TWO HOURS because I just wouldn't stop talking. However I did get to say what I wanted to say during that period of time. But... he didn't really get time to explain it since I kept talking.... like forever.

It had to end because he literally said I was "losing it" and it was hard to talk to me and understand me.

I'm kinda confused. But he didn't really take me seriously because I'm actually feeling great and I told him I don't need medication anymore because I feel amazing and that I wanted to take more courses (in my school, my psychiatrist is basically the "principal") and he said that I can't take any more courses and that
I 'm taking enough.

I also told him that I feel so great that I want to go back to regular school soon and he said that I am nowhere near ready to go back to regular school.

I am really confused and I felt like he didn't really like HEAR me even though I'm pretty sure I was thorough about it!

I also mentioned that I'm eating 200 calories a day so I can lose weight and I can't really stop myself because im obsessed with losing weight and exercising but he said that I probably eat more than I think which is impossible because I keep track of every SINGLE calorie I eat on an app on my phone.

I've noticed ive been hyper but honestly I felt like I completely humiliated myself because I was talking non stop about stuff I didn't even understand and when I left the room I saw two of my counsellors right outside the door smiling and laughing.

They were like "are you SURE you took your meds?" and I was like "YES!!!!"

And like I don't know but I feel really hyper even though my meds are usually helping me like crazy and honestly my psychiatrist thought I was losing it because I had so many great ideas and I KNOW that I can do so many things but

he said that I wasn't thinking clearly and im confused because im thinking great and im fine actually im amazing and he confused me so I dont know what to think right now I just feel hyper and I dont know why theres anything wrong with that I just want to get things done

he wouldn't take me off my meds and he won't let me do more school courses and he won't let me go back to regular school but I feel amazing why won't he let me do things I KNOW I can DO!!!