Yes when my babies dad rejected and left, I couldn't handle it and started threatning hima and trying so hard to impress him for 8 years now and I'm still obsessed with him.... I also tried to tell myself I'm gay now but I lied to myself.... I also am alone and feel why bother doing this or having that when know ones there to see it with me.... When I watch my favorite citcoms, I cry course I know I'll never a life like that.... But finding someone like me, I doubt it cause people are just meen