I've Been feeling pretty good lately.
The unseasonally warm (70 degrees in February!) weather in my neck of the woods has been ****ing fantastic. But I fear the sunshine and warm have tricked my brain into thinking it is spring. My mood is rising with the weather like a crocus that starts to bloom after a too warm winter day. But when the cold and frost return, the flower dies; I hope my winter depression doesn't sneak back in when it returns to proper winter temperatures.

Ugh. I don't know what is wrong with me that I can't just enjoy a great day without worrying that tomorrow will suck!!! Ah well. I am feeling a bit restless and lonely for company. I want to do something but alas I am stuck here in my house by myself with no plans to speak of. I did actually plan stuff for the weekend though; I am trying to be more Proactive about making sure I have a reason to leave the house and something to look forward to. I feel like that anticipation of doing something fun in the near future keeps me going.
I think I am gonna try to not beat myself up for not living up to the normal, laid back, even keeled alternate universe version of myself that I have in my head of who I should be and just embrace the nutty version of me that I actually am. Alternate universe naynay is probably boring, anyway...