Thank you. Yes I feel like SO doesn't feel like it's his responsibility, although he did take me out. Like he keeps a scoreboard.
I was very hurt again that he didn't tell me kids. Part of me thinks that's silly. I should announce it to them & make my own cake & be happy!
And part of me feels utterly abandoned yet again by my SO actions or lack there of.

I don't think anyone truly understands my feelings & im tired of being so alone.
Yes I admit I wanted some attention!