My father died two months ago, and I've been experiencing heavy symptoms ever since. Lots of stress, grief, loss; paranoia, evil voices, delusions of grandeur (think I'm God and want to punish someone for his loss, etc.), regular delusions (my father's soul is in hell because I am thinking "bad thoughts," etc.), and so on. Lithium is doing a good job controlling affective part of my SZA, but the psychosis rages on as it has done for 11 years. I am never going to get better...