(btw Im 14) I don't really have bad things in my past. I don't recall much "bad" boy problems. Or anything that would be traumatic to normal people. But for some reason.. For some reason I have issues with guys. So far I haven't experienced it with girls (yes i'm bi) but I have only recently discovered I had an issue in April of the past year. I can like a guy, and know they'd neved like me back, and nothing would be wrong. We're just friends. But if a guy shows romantic affection, or sexual affection, or for example says they love me, and I reply over and over with I don't believe them and they try to make me believe them, or if they ask me out, or even asks for hugs (I dont like being touched by people im uncomfortable with,kn fact im uncomfortable with most people), or even seem like they like me: I get depressed, and my anxiety increases (around them) but mainly, and I dont know how to fully explain it, even if I think they're an amazing person and sweet and kind, I have this feeling when I'm around them, this extremely uncomfortable feeling, like I cringe at the thought of that feeling, I don't know how to make people understand that feeling and that I can't control it. And how I want so desperately to get rid of that feeling. It makes me want to stay away from them. And then in doing so, I feel bad because it's not their fault. This feeling is kinda like "bad butterflies" except different. I wish I knew how to explain it. But for the past year theres only been one guy its never happened to. And I can't help but think maybe it's because I knew he didnt want a sexual relationship from me, or at the least wouldnt try. He is the only one I've felt that way with. You see I don't have a sexual desire. I used to, atleast I think I did. Because for a long period of time I tried to make myself think I did by trying to make myself be sexual attracted to people. I like people romantically but not sexually, it just doesn't please me. I have more issues but this is one of the only ones I can't blame something for. But if I can't find something to blame, I don't think I can handle it. Please can anyone help me. I've ruined so many friendships I don't think I can lose anyone else. I'm barely holding on in this life as it is. And the older I get, the more problems I get except they're all mental problems.