Hi everyone! this is my 2nd post and i wanted to say thanks to the replies i got, they helped me a lot. Knowing there's people out there in a similar place as mine and are fighting from there encourages me.

About the title's subject. I've started college now and yes, I'm feeling way better than a while ago but the lack of motivation to get up and do things that need to get done is worrying me. Now it's college, it's somehow the 'real deal' for me as of now. I've 'failed' college 2 yrs already. Mostly because of my bad emotional state. But I really don't want it to be the case this year.

I specifically describe it as lack of motivation because before it wouldn't be this. Before it'd be straight up sadness, self hatred and getting out bed only to go to the toilet; this for days.
Now it isn't like that. Actually I haven't been in this place before. Now I'm not feeling sad, nor with extremely low self-steem. I simply feel skeptical, bored of this life. Why am I even doing this? There's nothing that I look forward in my life. Is there something out there that makes it worth living?

I know one of the things that most of the times makes me feel better is cleaning up my room, it has been on my plans for two weeks but I simply don't feel like doing it.
I've even written down a list of "Things that lift my mood". They're 3 things, 2 of them I'm too lazy to do.

What have you noticed that helped lift your spirits, get some motivation, think of the future and how if you don't get things done, those stuff you somehow plan will never arrive and you'll most likely be the same, if not more, unhappy?

Do you write any kind of journal? About quotes/images/etc that motivate you? Do you write down your dreams/goals? Do you have any kind of tracking on how your mood/emotional state goes? If the answer is yes, has it helped you?