I´m not in therapy at the moment as I´ve been denied further help because of lack of therapists within the public health care. But I´m still engaged in therapy issues.

One thing I´ve experienced over the years, mostly with my latest T and partly also when I´ve seen T:s in evaluation sessions is that it feels like sitting there and confessing your faults and flaws. Of course you have to talk about your troubles and issues but most often I don´t feel that supported, more like the T is trying to find out why I have those faults and flaws.

Perhaps it lies within myself but I feel like the T indirectly blames me for my situation even if no T ever said that straight out to me.

For example I can tell a T I feel lonely and that I was partly alienated as a child and that I´ve felt that way in an adult age as well. To me this is a sorrow and a big problem but to T:s it seems to just pass and mix up with other things I mention.

I just end up telling them a lot about my problems but I don´t feel I get any help. I´m not looking for "tips and tricks" or "do this and that" but understanding of how I feel and why I feel this way.

I think I haven´t met with the right T yet but I also feel that as I know a lot about my own patterns and issues many T:s haven´t much to tell me.