Well, first things first. Get proper diagnosis, medicine and treatment plan so you can lead a good life. I had crippling anxiety so badly that it affected my entire life adversely. 20 years of talk therapy, completely useless. Finally went to the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN. They immediately put me on a medicine that changed my life. I have been in complete remission for 13 years. I realized that I am a joyous person who loves life. Predictably, as I got better, my husband, who has an improper diagnosis and wrong medicine (therapy via FaceTime with a quack psychologist in the D.C. Area who charges $400/session), walked out after 41 years of marriage.

I have a close, emotionally intimate and healthy relationship with my adult children and with all of my colleagues from my 30-year career (same job). I know that a true relationship has respect, trust, and safety. If this happens for me now, I'll know it and would allow it to grow organically. But I'm not seeking it.

I have good relationships but it's necessary to take some critically important steps to allow that to happen. Enjoy the ride.