First post,

Tired. Found this looking for a place to write and share it so I don't feel so alone.

I have had major depressive disorder for more than 10 years. Treatment resistant.

Divorced in Jan, Moved to Illinois (family) in November due to divorce, have chronic pain issues, can't work, at least not yet, maybe when pain issues get under control... On workers comp, but in CA and IL is very resistant to working with me on that...

Feel very depressed, very. Heart aches, if I weren't with my family, I probably wouldn't be here anymore...

Trying to get into a 12 step or start one, trying for SS disability, no income...

Feel worthless and a burden to my family... Struggling daily to just survive....