I just want to say that this has been a really good thread. I'm learning a lot too from reading it. Actually, I think this applies to me a lot. I'm not comfortable with being happy either - it just doesn't feel right. And I don't feel like I deserve it either. When I was at my lowest I was telling people that I had to always be that way because that was just how I was meant to be. The part of me that believes that is still hanging around, and isn't about to quietly resign itself to being happy. I'm such a rebel!

Thanks Carrie, and best wishes to you, and thanks to everyone who has contributed to this thread too.
Wendy