You are not stupid. Whether your in denial about having Bipolar or not.

You have a legit reason as for Big Pharma. I loathe that whole mess but I will scoot my soap box away, for now lol

I also believe that the exploding diagnosis of all kinds Mental Health can be due to the foods we eat now that are full of gawd knows what chemicals.

If the specific word Bipolar is a hurtle for you.... break it down to just treating individual symptoms. Anxiety, sleep issues, racing mind or the depressive end.