Thankyou dear Skeezyks! I was having a major anxiety attack when I wrote this.

My mechanic called me. He said it was very cold last night and condensation was probably making it look like a big bad smoky thing coming out of my tailpipe...but it was nothing. He told me to take the truck out today in warmer weather to convince myself.

I didn't want to because of my anxiety and being frightened. But I trust my mechanic. He is the sweetest and best mechanic.

So I took Little Red Rider out. At first she puffed some smoke but gradually it stopped. I went in town to buy beer because I intend to drink tonight. Had a nice talk with the clerk about Mexico and tequilla. I bought stout.

On the way back I took a country road and my truck performed well. I truck had an engine switched out and another put in so it is like she had a major transplant. I have been driving her for 20 plus years which is way too long for any vehicle.

I breathed a little easier and realized I had a major anxiety attack today that lasted about four hours. I have to do something. My moods are like a roller coaster. On no meds!!!

I realize I need to learn how to manage anxiety. Today was a terrible example of thoughts and emotions completely taking over. I definitely need to find a CBT coach.