I really admire the way you can talk to your therapist about this stuff.

Even reading about you doing it I blush, cant even imagine imaginng myself talking about it. I find it really difficult to admit im needy, let alone that I might have sexual feelings towards therpapist.

At the moment I am cringing inside soo much. Why? because in my last session I was talking about how Id realised recently that books were actually written by 'real people' there was actually a living being behind them rather than them just being a kind of objective neutral disinterested things that wrote them. And then I went on to say how id used to read my great grandparents love letters.

He obviously noticed me say this cos he asked when hteyd been written so i counted back and said as it was great grandparents it would have been around the early 1920's

But now im sure that he has noted that ive made this 'positive' comment and is seeing it as an unconscious expression of feeling towards him

blush