Wow Freedom I am so sorry. I am your husband (well not really your husband) but I am in the same place as he is. I have struggled for many years dealing with my depression and I just now got a hold on it. I know I can be there for my wife (which is something it sounds like your husband cannot do) and I am willing to be there for her. The best suggestion I can offer to you is if you have a good friend that you trust with your kids to see if they would watch them while you climbed into a hot bath. I know that when my wife had a bad day I would do that for her. I am not making exscuses for your husband, but this is a strange thing for men to cope with because even though you tell him he needs to get help he feels he can fix things himself. it took my wife pushing me away for me to realize the help I needed to get and to be honest I love her more for that than for anything else she has ever done for me. I have gotten the help I needed and now I am working on making our relationship work. Now don't get me wrong I still have hard nights (last night for one) but when I do I think about something that happened in our lives that really made me smile. I suggest that when you are having a rough day you just think of something that makes you or made you happy in your relationship and just reflect and smile. Anytime you would like you can PM me to talk.

God Bless
Dragon