Só leigheas,
We are just PC friends which is a little different that IRL friends but I am being truthful when I say that it seems like, based on your posts, you are still extremely mentally ill. It is not your fault. You have gone through a lot. It is possible that you can recover from your MI but it is just going to take time. I did not start recovering until I became willing to accept help. I said to myself, even if they feel sorry for me, I need all the help I can get so I am not going to worry about what their complex motivations are. Instead I just reacted to how they treated me in the present moment. You will only recover if you can learn to trust some of the people in your life. It can be scary to trust but when people are nice to you, but work on trying to just accept it, not distrust it. Without help, you will not recover. Try to be grateful that they made a kind gesture. I know it is hard for you because you have been hurt many times. <<<hugs>>>