Sorry you are in the midst of this awful feeling. I know it too well.
I think I felt like this a lot of the time when I was growing up, but lacked the words and the self-awareness to put words to the feeling/s.

I've had intense periods of feeling this emptiness inside again and again in my adult life as well. It's not as bad as it used to be.

What helped me:

• Mindfulness and especially mindful self-compassion(MSC) (if you do a google search on MSC you'll find lots of resources. It's a mindfulness based concept developed to help develop and foster self-love and self-compassion.
• Getting more into MSC helped me to view my younger self/selves with more compassion and love.
• For me, whenever I feel this emptiness, it often points to needs from when I was little that were not met. So the question I ask myself: What can I do today to feel my 'inner child' cared, nutured, taken care of?
• If my 'inner child' is happy and content, I notice I approach life with more curiousity, a sense of adventure, a deep trust that I can manage... The result is that I enjoy life more. Also, the more I just "live my life", the less this inner emptiness raises its head. But living life is definitely different from just keeping yourself busy in order to seek distraction from painful thoughts and feelings...

Maybe there is something in this that's helpful for you?


Also, having a therapist who took those feelings seriously and didn't just discard them as brooding and/or obsessive ruminating helped a lot. My current therapist listens without judging, gives me space for grieving the things that were missing in the past, and then helps me to come to a place when I can start looking after myself and my needs.


Wishing you all the best and much love for yourself!

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