You mentioned in other discussions that you tend to be rather perfectionstic. Maybe this view on yourself and life in general tends to get a bit in the way when talking in therapy about problems and things you want to change in your life?

For me, perfectionism is deeply connected with feelings of shame, guilt, judgment... So in order to get away from this perfectionism which is not healthy for me, I also needed to tackle those feelings connected with it.

To me, the dynamics with your latest therapist seemed to be in many ways influenced by your perfectionist demands on yourself. I totally get that this perfectionism makes it difficult to talk about your problems. I know it myself too well. For me it was that I 'projected' my feelings shame and my self-judgment onto my therapist, in a way I externalized my self-aggressive feelings because I did not want to acknowledge that I'm so judgmental on myself. My T at the time kept saying that what I'm practising here is some form of self-harm, which I found a bit extreme when she said it, but now later on I can see what she meant...

The thing is: Having problems is part of being human. It's universal. Everybody has problems. Having them does not make you faulty in any way.

Maybe this could be a project for you - trying to 'learn' that it is ok not to be 'perfect'? That mistakes happen in life? That problems are part of life, and not faults or flaws? That your value as a person does not depend on you being 'perfect' (according to your own standards)?
I started down this road a few years ago, and it transformed important areas of my life.

Maybe you find something useful in these experiences of mine?
Wishing you all the best. Don't give up!
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