I forgot to add in my post about US of tara. if you google it you will find that the last episode was supposed to lead the watchers of the show into realizing Tara and the qalters were ready to go through integration and moving on with her life as a non DID person. she fantasized on killing bryce off, anger and other situaitons between the alters and tara were resolved or in the action of being resolved and it ended with Tara getting into a cab and driving away to go to the mental facility for the last step in the process... integration / on whole person. the producers chose to leave the ending like that (with everyone knowing tara was ok and becoming a non DID person again) they tried to get one more season to show the a fictionalized/ tv version of integration but they didnt get enough neisen rating, nor sponsors or funds for finishing the series with a big bang of a final season.

I am so so clead I wasnt like Tara, can you imagine being at your childs school function and making a sexualuized pass at children and adults at that function like tara's teen aged sexual alter did.. yea that would have handed anyone in prison now days.

even though I am now integrated I still like the images of a circus and well sewed quilt for me and my internal system.