I have bipolar disorder among ptsd, panic disorder/w agoraphopia and a few others. I will be blunt. I was sexually abused as a child and always very shy. I am divorced. from a young age i always wanted to be in diapers. I suppressed it for years and i now wear them most of the time. they make me feel relaxed, safe and secure. I am not in the least bit aroused by it, but on the web, everyone into that seems to be sexually consumed by it. I am not at all. I am sick of getting blown off as being some kind of sick pervert. I want to tell others why i do it but they still will think the same thing. Is it ok to simply wear something no matter what if it helps with anxiety as opposed to taking more pills? Should I be ashamed?

Trazadone
perphenazine
klonopin
effexor
neurontin
trilaptal