I just recently did the same thing until I thought I was in hell. I just couldn't take anymore. I just wanted to die. But eventually I did have some better days. Right now I don't really know what is happening. I feel great one day and terrible the next. I wish I would just level out somewhere so that I could handle things a little better. I have been depressed since 1999 and have never had this 'flavor' of depression. But I don't know how but I always seem to survive.
Ken