hi, im a little lost i guess..Ive been trying to find somewhere i belong and im going to try here now..ive not been diagnosed with did but its something ive always felt..i dont know why... anyway i do go to mental health, its a free clinic and too many people for them to handle.. doctors change all the time and each one puts a new label on me.. so many now..bipolar rabid cycle, major depression, add, anixtys, phobias, borderline personalty disorder, dissociation.. my therapist told me to put a thick rubber band around my wrist and snap it when i like i was floating away..
about me..im 39 but most of time feel like a child..sometimes i look in mirror and wonder who i am..where did i go.. from what details i can remember of my childhood i was abused mentally and phyicaly by my mom..and dad.. My health is going down hill, blood pressue is high and my weight is going up very fast..ive gained over 130 pounds in last year..my boyfriend made a coment the other day.. your like 2 people I think you have split personaltys ..I do believe that..also in my head it goes round and round.. even when i write i notice sometimes i jump from subjects like im all mixed up...Please someone tell me if you see something in what i say..tell me what to say to doctor.. tell me how to handle this and get grip on life..thank you