My T wants me to think of something I could use to reward myself for progress as in not cutting. She didn't seem amused when I suggested that hurting myself some other way was my reward for not cutting. Even though it was something that doesn't really hurt.

The problem is, whatever I could give myself as a reward, I'll probably do if I want to anyway, or maybe give myself as consolation after cutting even. So what difference does it make if I tell myself that if I don't cut, I can have a piece of chocolate? I'll eat the chocolate anyway. Or I could tell myself I can have a bubble bath. Then I'll hold it against myself if I'm bad, and not take a bath, and punish myself both by not taking a bath, and for not taking a bath. A lot of the things that I might use as a reward are things I ought to be doing anyway.

Any ideas?