Today I finally got the nerve up to call my doc. I didn't hold anything back when I saw him. I told him about how bad my depression is and about the severe attacks of anxiety ( which is what finally drove me to call for help ). To my surprise he acyuall listened adn for now just gave me xanax for anxiety, ran bloodwork to check for any hormonal changes and gave me a referral to a new psych doc. He did not give me anything for my depression as I do not tolerate those drugs well and he felt it will be best for the new psych doc to prescribe those meds. Feeling a bit better already. I hope I'm on the right track because I just can't take this hell I've been in anymore.