I had to do a presentation at work today. Speaking in front of people is so far out of my comfort zone it's untrue. But I have to take my turn. It's only half an hour. There were only 7 people.

There's a handout that I have to give out & then talk the group through each page. I got to the third or fourth page & my mind just went blank.

I just sat there with 7 people looking at me. I looked down at the page & apologised & took a couple of deep breaths & tried to carry on. But now the adrenalin had kicked in & my voice was shaking & I could barely breathe & my mouth and lips were so dry the felt like they'd swollen up. I kept going. It happened again on the next page. I apologised again & all I could think of was running out of that room in tears & asking a colleague to carry on in my place. But I didn't & I carried on & the adrenalin subsided & I got through it & I think the last 20 mins were OK all things considered.

But it's bothered me all day. I can't get out of my head how unprofessional I must have looked. I'm know when my turn comes again I'm going to be so anxious a full blown anxiety attack is likely. I just don't see how I'm going to do it. I'm crying just thinking about it.

I feel like I should be proud I made it through. But I'm so embarrassed at what happened. I have to work with the 7 people. I just...I really don't know what I feel & have no idea how to avoid a repeat or worse next time around.