I've been wondering how much awareness of your disorder helps in mediating episodes. I was diagnosed late last summer so I'm still trying to get a hold on this.For example: I was very aware that I was becoming depressed this past winter. In fact.. I feel like I felt the moment it hit. I knew I was getting depressed. I know what the symptoms are. I knew I didn't have a reason to get depressed. But... the hopelessness was there anyway. So I'm wondering about mania. I'm getting into that time of year. I know I can feel mania coming on now. At least I think I do. I know that it causes me to make very, very bad decisions. Now that I know about it... can I just say no? Or.. will I create a wreck regardless?