It's easier to feel depressive episodes come on IMO. (Hypo) mania takes more awareness, for me at least. I had a Dr. teach me relapse prevention. It helped me to be aware of when episodes are coming on so I can do something about it before it got out of control. Unfortunately, this illness can make you hyper aware of any and all changes you experience because it takes time to know what is a real episode or what is just a natural part of life for everyone.