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Feb 27, 2017, 05:54 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2015
Location: West Coast
Posts: 89
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I'm unsure and ruminating and emotionally handicapped right before going into therapy. I am on the shot of Abilify and I feel like I am more emotionally stable enough to talk, but I am not sure how to start conversation about the negative thoughts that plague me. I certainly do not want to be labeled a "psycho" and anyone threaten my ability to have a job and I don't want to get hospitalized every time I get too real.
I don't want to be the "special" patient or the sickest one there but I'm worried I am that patient. I want to be able to talk about everything and in a concise and eloquent way, but AGAIN I do not want to impress anyone and I don't want anyone to think I am lying. I want to be in control but I want to be honest and I don't want to be looked at as a phony...
I am stuck in between a rock and a hard place here. I don't want to go to the hospital again and have to ask to use the toilet every time I have to pee.
I'm so irritable and depressed over this inability to talk about my feelings and thoughts,- I only have 10 minutes to talk, but at the same time I have to do it or I'm just going to keep suffering  .
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