I'm really struggling with my extremely negative thoughts. I cannot stop them with all the loneliness and isolation I'm living. At this point I don't want to try to change. I just want to die peacefully with no pain. I wish my parents didn't bring me on this miserable world. I've taken the space and resources of someone else who could have done better. I'm no longer seeking or desiring anything out of this life, and I'm not contributing good to anyone. Non existence is my true place in this universe.