I am all over the place...that's why it's hard to post anything. I've wanted to start a thread for weeks now.

Self-confidence would be a good thing to start with, but I feel like I need to be away from bullies and be in a positive, supportive environment to do that. I'm not sure where to find that.

And since my last therapist further eroded my trust in therapists, I'm not sure therapy is the answer. I'm not strong enough to defend myself against them. I feel therapists don't understand my situation at all and just suggest things that further harm me and lower my self esteem.