It is possible that the meds you were on were not helping you but stopping them all at once would destabilise even a stable person, and you don't sound stable Blue. Your paranoia, extreme excitement and impulsiveness do suggest mania. The Adderal has done this to you in the past. It is a BIG concern as you may lose insight and totally ruin your life, or worse. Balance is the key here. If you think you need to reassess your medication come off it slowly and get a second opinion from another pdoc in the meantime. Also, Adderal is for ADHD and you have mentioned that it doesn't even help those symptoms. You need to stop taking it. If you are going to be med free you may as well go all the way. The Adderal will only make things worse in the end. I know it feels so good now, but it feels too good. It will bite you soon.

Try to use your insight to see what effect this is having on your life. Make sure your work, relationships, health and sleep are not affected. It is my concern that things will spiral out of control and you will lose grip on reality and place yourself in danger. Whether or not you have Bipolar is irrelevant at the moment. You just need to be safe. Your post reflects a person who is 'high' not stable. Please take care and take every decision very cautiously. We all care about you. Please keep posting.