Thanks, everyone. These are some really good suggestions. I actually love meditation and I just haven't made the time for it. Hearing the description of meditation really hit a chord with me. I really need to do it. Also, thanks for your kind words everyone. I really needed to hear that I wasn't alone, that I'm not crazy, and that I'm not just feeling sorry for myself. I can't even put my finger on it exactly, but what you all said was exactly what I needed to hear today. I think the main thing was that it took pressure off of me to feel like I had to be supermom. Oh, and I love the idea of heading off to the zoo!!!! Thanks again, you have no idea how much this helped.