I am sorry you feel this way Mr Stranger.I felt like it would be better I don't exist all day yesterday and periodically I get struck by feelings of wanting to die.
Negative thoughts do tend to go hand in hand with isolation and loneliness.If you were more positive you might conjure up ideas of how to get out of the loneliness and end your isolation.This book has helped me stop extremely negative states of mind.I hope it helps you too.
Hugs from me to you and I hope you will be surrounded with love soon.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Anxiety-Pho...hobia+workbook