I was in choir tonight when i got either an anxiety attack or several panic attacks. Was claustrophobic and wanting to flee. also wanting to cut which has been the second time today that i've had to get past the urge. It was so bad it's like reality stopped being real. I thought it had already happened - i could see the cuts so clearly in my mind (and worse than usual) that when i got home, i thought they were really there. I went to wash dishes and was afraid to roll up my sleeves in the presence of my fam. But there are no cuts. I swear I saw them - they were real, but only for that moment. has that happened to others? am i losing what little grip on reality I thought i had?
=( kiya