I am sorry you are having a difficult time, Blue.

You are sharing your experience of paranoia with us here on the forum. We all care and are concerned for your safety. Your biggest threat to your welfare is your current state of mind -- your paranoia, use of Adderall, suspension of use of stabilizing meds.

I understand you feel we are mistaken or misunderstanding when we ask you to call your pdoc or to go to the ER. I care about you, thus have to also ask you to utilize one or more of these options while you are well enough and can make these decisions for yourself.

(((((( Blue ))))))


WC