I sometimes think I should go back but I've been avoiding it. I haven't been taking very good care of myself. I was hospitalized months ago and was fine for a couple weeks. I started drinking again and I ran out of medication. It was very easy to slip back into old patterns and habits of isolating myself. I have been thinking about suicide off and on for months and I cut myself again the other day. My mom told me not to go but I feel really unstable. I'm not sure If I should go because sometimes the suicidal thoughts go away. I just know that I don't feel very well.