I have been in your shoes before, and always ended up in the hospital.

YES< YES< YES!!! You need to be hospitalized so people can help you.
I was an alcoholic for 16 years, I have bi-polar, shitzo-affective, gad, panic disorder, and social anxiety disorder.

You come first above all no matter what your Mom thinks.

I want to see you safe and get the help you need fast. I am only saying this because I was in your shoes, and tried to take my own life. I almost died! It is not worth it, you are better than this! You can do it, we are much stronger people yet when we need help, we need to ask for it.