I saw my t. The first time in 6 weeks. I was Paranoid she'd hospitalized me. Well she didn't. She's worried about me wants me to do iop. It's 5 weeks. If I don't want meds. I have an appointment with a pdoc next Tuesday. She doesn't like that I'm isolated. My next to appointment with her is the 21st. Hopefully I'm not so nervous next week. I'm so nervous to go to the Dr. I have to get use to the new Dr. I'm top of the list for a therapist change. I'm all over the place.