Well, if I'm being completely honest... I'm a bit scared of IP.

It's just the whole predicament, I guess. I'm not comfortable with it. I jut want the anxiety to go away.

I threw away my Klonopin and Ativan since they were useless, but t would be nice if I could get Valium or Xanax.. or something of the like. My anxiety is killing me. It's taking me places I don't want to go.

Maybe I should trust my pdoc and ask for an Rx. But I just don't know if he's "in on it", if you know what I mean. But I guess if he calls in an Rx, I could ask the pharmacy if they're giving me placebos, etc.. I never asked, but I'm sure legally they have to tell me