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Originally Posted by Terish
My T has told me many times and I have also read in books and online that DID is caused by severe and prolonged trauma experienced in childhood.I know that and I understand that.I know that it takes alot to cause it, I know that it takes severe abuse and that those that have it have been through some extremely horribe stuff as kids.
Sometimes though it's just hard to grasp and accept that I went through severe and prolonged trauma.That it happened to me.That I am one of those people like what you hear about or read about on the news or on Facebook.You know how you read or hear one of those sickining stories of child abuse and neglect and it makes you feel sick and feel so bad for the kid and think how horrible the parents are?
It's just hard to grasp that any of those stories could have been mine,that it happened to me too.I mean I know it happened but it's just so huge to comprehend sometimes.It's just bizarre to think about sometimes because from the outside I'm sure my family looked like the perfect upper middle class family.
Anyone else feel the same?
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yes I used to feel the same way but that changed over time as more and more memories were recovered, more and more stability happened. my treatment provider explained to me that sometimes the nature of a mental disorder is to block out the extremeness of the trauma, the traumatic events, this leads to sometimes being diagnosed with a mental disorder but feeling like a persons situation isnt as bad as another persons. with me, I stayed away from reading about other peoples trauma's and whether they were extreme in my definition of extreme. what really mattered was what their own treatment providers and they felt was extreme.
example what happened to me, might not be considered extreme by someone else and vice versa but what mattered is that in ....me .... it was extreme considering my culture and life style and history.
my suggestion is not to worry about whether you measure up to the extremes that you are finding in books and on the internet. go according to what your own treatment provider says is what extreme trauma is defined in you.