I screwed up two opportunities i had in Day Hospital and lived to regret them. I'd like to encourage you to dig deep and take advantage of the opportunity to get some real, concrete help. I know it's hard. Just take it minute by minute if you have to. I really missed out when i blew my chances and i've really suffered because of them, learning things the hard way, by trial and error in the real word. In other words, by getting hurt over and over. It's a tough and slow way to learn. Make it easy on yourself by learning in a supportive environment. I often wonder how much fuller my life would be if only i had tolerated my two tries at Day Hospital, how much further ahead i'd be, if i would have had a child.