It's amazing how you handled that. Everyday I am still afraid and looking if I see my ex... hoping I will see her so she can see how great I am doing.

Everytime I hear about her or speak her name I get these weird feelings in my stomach and my backhair rises ( can't really type anything sencible right now, tired ). I want to meet her, but on the other hand I do not want to meet her.

I recognise the conversations you had in your mind. I don't have them anymore, until I think about how much I hate her and I want to see her suffer. Right now, I'm seeing another lovely woman and she keeps me sane.