I loathe depression. It makes me feel terrible about myself, I am anxious and I feel dead inside. I love hypomania and wish I could be that way all the time, but full-blown mania is dangerous for me---I become angry and severely irritable, and I say and do bad things to people I love. I don't physically attack anyone, but I have threatened to and it scares them. I'm glad I haven't had any significant mania for a long time now; just bursts of hypomania that last only a few days to a couple of weeks.