Everyone has great advice.

Perna, you are right, bitter really doesn't get me anywheres and ISIN'T worth much at all.

Feeling a bit better about the whole situation though I am most certainly not going to be looking to jumping into anything for a long, long time. I need to find some good male friends who I can bond with and re-establish what makes a good male in my life and what I would be looking for in the first place.