Feeling kind of like crap today. Im tired, I just want to sleep forever.
Wondering if my good mood last week was just normal good or something else. A coworker friend had asked me jokingly if i did drugs one morning last week bc I was very hyper. i just thought I was feeling really good. Idk. Maybe I am just too hyper focused on trying to identify my moods. I sort of feel like i have no ****ing idea what or how I am feeling anymore.

I missed my support group yesterday bc took a nap after work. My house is a mess. I need to clean, do laundry, catch up on paperwork. And i am just stepping over the mess and pretending it's not there. I Had a weigh in this week and I gained back all the weight I had just lost. Ready to give up. Feeling pathetic and alone and Im scared that I always will be. I feel like it would be easy to just never ge out of bed. But I have to work tomorrow. Ugh. Maybe I should try using my sun lamp?